Have you ever laugh yet feeling hollow inside?

Pondered at a future that looks dark and bleak?

Wonders what is the next stage of life going to be?

Sat on a couch, staring at the ceiling blankly?

Hands shaking due to fear?

Wishing to turn back time and acted
differently given the same scenario?

My life is finally back on track!

Long time no post peeps! But since not much reader, forgive my laziness to update. Now in post-studying time, I've finally found time to blog.

Few highlights during this holidays

• steamboat at Hot Pot with fellow coursemates
• Neway karaoke-ing at midnight
• Kajang sate-ing with Yong Wing
• Sg Long half day tour
• KL night viewing at Ampang Look Out Point with bio gang
• Transformer : Revenge of the Fallen!
• Foot massage therapy with Wai Kit
• Chang Hua very belated Bday celebration
• Football Saturday
• Part time work at Merck in Sunway Tower with Wei Wen
• Ice Skating at Sunway Pyramid
• Pool at Rack with Jee Kui and Chang Hua
• Bak Kut Teh-ing with Randy, JK and CH at PJ Old Town
• Pasar Malam
• Alvin Bday Celebration

The Climb!

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

inspiring song, hopefully can spur me on through this dark times!

I'm heading perhaps one of the most difficult times in my life. It seems I struggling with everything : studies, relationship, friends, stress releasing, even smiling (from the heart, instead of those fake wry smile)

Really wish for God's guidance to pull me through this tough times. It seems a long and dark alley with me alone. No one to lean my head on nor to smile along. Everyone seems to be all for themselves at this moment, guess this is the reality ~snaps~

Those days when a problem arise and I would just laugh it away seems distance away. Guess that's the responsibility i have to bear since I entering the adulthood. Time seems ticking away as I caught in this transition of time. Knowing my role yet unable to do anything is taking a toll to my physical and mental strength.

I can't afford to fall sick during this period of time, yet it's mentally draining and my body can't seem to cope with it. The added stress makes me feel so vulnerable to anything. Never have i fear so much in this life! 2 more months ahead, i seriously hope I can reach the goal i set but it looks bleak at this very moment

*sigh*

The M$$$$on Do$$ar Quest$on

actually just RM100 only.

Should I go prom?
since it's my final year

with me on a tight budget
and no date

How's my Valentine's goes

Just want to list some of the eventful things that happen on this

• went 1U for gift (birthday) shopping. There's a newscaster trying to interview couples on this eventful day. Since it was (quite) early, there's not much people (couple included) around yet I keep bumping into them at each part of the mall. Must be teasing me for being alone this Valentine's, lol-ed
• my planned Valentine's lunch date failed to materialise in the end, went home indulge myself with chocs and tv
• had a tiring batang fest (1 and a half) futsal with ex-DJians, supposedly the last one before Joel came back from Aus to do his honours.
• valentine's dinner with family as it was Mom's birthday (lunar) and Valentine's day
• attend Mabel's early 21st b'day celebration. Managed to watch slumdog millionaire, the oscar nominee show (ok-la!) How was the celebration? Quite grand with each one receiving one rose as everyone knows valentine's day roses aren't cheap.
• indulge myself with burger bomba for supper. Yummy!
• celebrate Joel's departure by playing poker at his house till 3am

Loneliest season?! Warning : Emo post detected!

How hard was it picking up a phone and dial her number?

How tough was it calling her to wish a happy birthday and perhaps happy valentine?

How simple was it to initiate a conversation with her?

How easy was it to let her know my feelings all this while?

Don't wish to write more on this issue, just not me being so emo and negative